The days fly, a month passed, it would continue to fly regardless of what you do. Don't waste your life, do something meaningful!
If you're depressed about the past, anxious about the future, you're in the trap of not having anything.
Maybe it's true, I heard of a sentence "No record is not yet experienced", I should write down the things I've experienced every day. Just record them, take it easy, don't feel like that's a heavy task. Just a few sentences, even meaningless ones, the most important thing is to be consistent. We understand how hard it was to get back into the swing of things after being away, so, don't stop.